stop my heart from beating

where has it all gone


you don’t know how you don’t

read me a story, count all the minutes

between when the doors closed

the sheets, the covers

i told you when these day late hours

rusted over

the only things left would be

that empty blanket and

where she sighed, happily

i told you that i’d always remember

our favorite songs

and gazing up at the ceiling

when you laughed and

thumbed through that magazine mindlessly

cause in those in between hazy daylight hours

was where my heart was


The Warm Hours

  When the warm hours rust over and slowly turn to the steely sounds of rushing and of cold and water droplets leaking from dusty pipes
I will remember the nights we sat on my old apartment floor reminiscing and pressing our toes together to show that we understood.
I will remember the beach and the way that sand carried through the wind and how your laughter echoed across the paths of gulls as she ran out to play.
I will think upon those days of light footed exploration where foggy ponds became magical landscapes
Where we ran through the docks head on into our futures.
I will remember the way you laughed as you skipped gingerly across those mossy rocks. You always had a way of making everything worthy of a smile.
And I will remember all the nights you called me and told me, “Honey, everything will be alright.”
– It will be alright
just so long as you will always be my happy conversation
The one who forgets to put the chicken in the freezer
But that has never stopped me from loving you –
– it never has-
It has only ever made me love you more.

John Mayer – Stop This Train

For days when you feel like time is speeding ahead too quickly, and you wish you could hit rewind…

No I’m not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but
I just can’t sleep on this tonight
Stop this train, I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly won’t someone stop this train

Don’t know how else to say it, don’t want to see my parents go
One generation’s length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t but honestly won’t someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you’ll renegotiate
Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
Don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train

See once in a while when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
’til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark…

Mirah – La Familia

Hey friends don’t you think you better cool it down

You’re always getting curious and leaving town

You know I like it being in your family

I wonder what would happen if nobody left

We’d all stick around if we’d all stick around

Hey friend listen up they’re playing our song

On the radio, do you have to go?

I really like it, this rock and roll

Let’s none of us forget about who we are

So choose a path and follow it

Take a pill and swallow it

None of us forget about who we are

It’s not forever we can fool around in the dark

If we sleep together

Would it make it any better?

If we sleep together

Would you be my friend forever?

Better Than Ezra – Our Last Night

For when you have to leave something behind.

We were standing in an empty room

The moonlight was falling

You were holding my hand when the car pulled up for you

And I could have spent a life with you

But those days were over

You were calling my name when your face faded from view

I remember waking up with you

The days doing nothing

You meant more to me then than I think you ever knew.

But you were gonna be a doctor, movie star

A poet at a Nobel seminar

I hope the world never tore that out of you

I was waving as you drove away

The sunlight was falling

You were writing backwards in a dusty window pane