You told me life was impermanent, that like dandelions, we all fade
And I’m too ashamed to say that I don’t want to be alone
I’m too scared to admit
That I find meaning in every little thing you say
And I don’t want to hear what you said circling in my mind
In that empty room in the dark as the lights go out across the city
I’m too scared to tell you that
I wanted to paint you in a memory that I can’t even place
on fingertip, on in-between, on this nonstop reel of
flashing scenes, of poetry, of faded light
She said “I paint flowers so they will not die,”
And I wanted to take this record and make it spin forever.
If I could bottle up your brilliant heart and give it to the
watch it rise every morning
as I lift my head from the pillow
Maybe I’d remember
this is why we love.
We rose up in the sky that night and you
were the breeze leading me home.
You said “Take my hand and we’ll tuck this memory
into a little place in your heart forever”
And you were the red in my lips
and the smoke rising from the flame
You were the stars shooting across the sky
“No reason to lie when you can shock them with the truth. It’s more interesting anyway,” you said.
Lentils, cooked or not, are still lentils. They just smell different. I squeezed them tightly in palm of my hand.
“Anthony, why’d you give me cooked lentils? That’s so weird. Why are you so weird?” He always loved lentils. The red kind, not the green.
“Anthony. Darling. Let’s walk up this hill and catch the last sunset together. It’ll be worth it. I’ll buy you a home by the sea, just like you wanted.”
You asked me why.
“Because that’s what people do when they love each other, Anthony. That’s what we do.”
For the unforgettable – Ecuadorian flute bearing – MJ.
Dreamers, keep dreaming. We aren’t the hopeless romantics; the world has it wrong. We are the hopeful romantics. Dream on. Live on. Love on.
Slice me open like a renegade You runaway black star
Kiss me quick like a snake
Let your poison dangle over my heavy bones
Tickle me slowly with your feathery gaze Hunt my flesh
Make me hunger for your bloodthirsty Kill
Seething love through my vertebrae Shaking rain make me thunder
For your whole
I’ll take any excuse to love you
So explain to me that the sky isn’t blue
That this pain I’m feeling isn’t real
Tell me that people don’t really have two hands Tell me we’ll live forever
even though I know someday we all have to go
I’ll take any excuse to love you
Any excuse to believe that this might somehow work Tell me that when you paused
when I asked if you thought we’d be together always
That you really meant yes
to be immortal
this cavern of consciousness repeating
dying- life giving,
fell into muddied waters never to return
the human spirit
Covered spaces, cracks in the pavement
The way our smiles lit up dusk like twilight
Love me forever
If only for this moment in time
Light up my life my heart like fireworks
Blanket my soul
We didn’t notice the dandelion seeds blowing in
endless roads, distance, causeways for miles and miles
We’ll take these trails hand in hand forever
didn’t notice the foxtails in the distance,
flowers got in the way
sun setting over highway 94
your voice still an echo fading,
you know i’m driving all the way to chicago,
i don’t know if i’m ever coming back home.
i remember the way you used to look at me
you didn’t know i longed for you the same.
melt my heart into your pillow
don’t you know your smile shoots
darts like sunbeams?
i know the days we walked in darkness
were numbered, so numbered
if these streets could talk they’d tell you
that i still remember
sand dollars, that one day
and i wanted you so badly
i wanted so badly for you to be the one.
salt and snow gravel grind beneath your shadow smile
miles and miles,
left behind the train tracks skidding with the pebbles dancing off the rails as we race on by.
Don’t you know we’re going to Alaska?
you say laughing, throwing your hat into the air
for a moment all i see is your joy
and in that moment i know that nothing else matters