“No reason to lie when you can shock them with the truth. It’s more interesting anyway,” you said.
Lentils, cooked or not, are still lentils. They just smell different. I squeezed them tightly in palm of my hand.
“Anthony, why’d you give me cooked lentils? That’s so weird. Why are you so weird?” He always loved lentils. The red kind, not the green.
“Anthony. Darling. Let’s walk up this hill and catch the last sunset together. It’ll be worth it. I’ll buy you a home by the sea, just like you wanted.”
You asked me why.
“Because that’s what people do when they love each other, Anthony. That’s what we do.”
For the unforgettable – Ecuadorian flute bearing – MJ.
Dreamers, keep dreaming. We aren’t the hopeless romantics; the world has it wrong. We are the hopeful romantics. Dream on. Live on. Love on.
Slice me open like a renegade You runaway black star
Kiss me quick like a snake
Let your poison dangle over my heavy bones
Tickle me slowly with your feathery gaze Hunt my flesh
Make me hunger for your bloodthirsty Kill
Seething love through my vertebrae Shaking rain make me thunder
For your whole
I’ll take any excuse to love you
So explain to me that the sky isn’t blue
That this pain I’m feeling isn’t real
Tell me that people don’t really have two hands Tell me we’ll live forever
even though I know someday we all have to go
I’ll take any excuse to love you
Any excuse to believe that this might somehow work Tell me that when you paused
when I asked if you thought we’d be together always
That you really meant yes
to be immortal
this cavern of consciousness repeating
dying- life giving,
fell into muddied waters never to return
the human spirit
Covered spaces, cracks in the pavement
The way our smiles lit up dusk like twilight
Love me forever
If only for this moment in time
Light up my life my heart like fireworks
Blanket my soul
We didn’t notice the dandelion seeds blowing in
endless roads, distance, causeways for miles and miles
We’ll take these trails hand in hand forever
didn’t notice the foxtails in the distance,
flowers got in the way
sun setting over highway 94
your voice still an echo fading,
you know i’m driving all the way to chicago,
i don’t know if i’m ever coming back home.
i remember the way you used to look at me
you didn’t know i longed for you the same.
melt my heart into your pillow
don’t you know your smile shoots
darts like sunbeams?
i know the days we walked in darkness
were numbered, so numbered
if these streets could talk they’d tell you
that i still remember
sand dollars, that one day
and i wanted you so badly
i wanted so badly for you to be the one.
salt and snow gravel grind beneath your shadow smile
miles and miles,
left behind the train tracks skidding with the pebbles dancing off the rails as we race on by.
Don’t you know we’re going to Alaska?
you say laughing, throwing your hat into the air
for a moment all i see is your joy
and in that moment i know that nothing else matters
wrap my heart in embers
encase my chest in cloth wrap it stop it from breaking
or at least hold its shattered pieces together
wrap it in steel so I can’t feel the quaking
roaring rivers running through canyons
filled with lions
cool it with breezes, funnel in light
hold me so hard that it stops hurting
hold me hard and plant flowers in my emptiness
I want to watch them bloom in the springtime
remind me that everything dies but that there is new life
so many words i wanted to say
untouched spaces, fragments, mind
untouched heart caverns, rivers
and where is the hard,
where is it when all i see is water, ruins, drown
your softness cuts into my chest
empty cave, gravel grinding, crush
dark and where, where is the hard
where is the hard when the very place
where i once felt safe now scares me to death
dark corners, mirrors, walls and walls and walls
pain, no love to be found.